背影

看了我一个朋友的部落格，提到回头一望~~我忽然想起我和我的傻佬

以前刚开始和他谈恋爱时，我都很讨厌每次告别后，我总会看着他的背影离去，因为看着他渐行渐远，我会哭~~

后来我跟他说：“我很不喜欢看着你的背影离我越来越远，我会哭。 ”从此，他都不在我视线范围内离开，每次都会目送我离去，一直到他看不到为止~~

每次，他送了我去lrt站后，都会站在原地看着我的背影。而我，总会忍不住回头看,看见他傻傻的看着我，傻傻对我笑，我就会觉得很幸福~~再把头转回去等轻快铁时，就会感觉像被浓浓的爱包围着，我就像背了千斤重的爱在背上，却不觉得重~~

上了车后，我又会再次看着他，看见他离去的背影，突然觉得那瘦削的身影好孤单，我想，目送我离去对他来说应该也是一件痛苦的事吧~~

这是一个男人能够对一个心爱的女人所表达的，最温柔的爱，也是最深情的温柔~~

我一直往前走，你却一直原地踏步~~

当你握着我的手在我身边睡着的时候，那一刻我感觉到你是真的很爱我~~我知道我已经是你的全部，可是很奇怪的，我总觉得我们之间隔着一堵墙~~

我开始相信人是会随着时间而改变~~当初我很天真的认为，只要可以和你在一起，即使你在路边卖水果，我也不介意给你送饭，替你擦汗~~可是，现在的我，想起这些情景，只觉得那是多么的不可能~~

我的野心开始变得越来越大，我不再满足于有情饮水饱~~我对我的将来是多么有抱负，有理想~~你能给我的，是最最最最简单的幸福~~就是那种如果我们只剩下一片面包，你一定好不犹豫把整片面包都给我，然后明明自己饿得要命却还笑着拍拍我的头，对我说：“我不饿，你吃吧." 你就是那么简单的一个男人，把自己最好的都给自己最心爱的女人~~只是，你永远都不会知道，我想要的，早已远远超出你所能给的~~

或许，想当年的天真、无知、单纯，也只能留给‘想当年’， 人始终是要往前看，往前走~~而我，和其他人没什么分别，我也是一个跟着年龄的增长而不停往前走的人~~只有你，从开始到现在，都一直原地踏步~~可是，或许这就是你的优点吧~~始终如一~~可是，我唯一肯定的是，我真的很爱你~~

我们这一段感情，充满着矛盾和无奈，而唯一把我们紧紧牵在一起的，纯粹是爱啊~~

mothers day celebration at Tasty Pot Steamboat, Sunway~~

i had been squeezing my mind, trying to squeeze out any possible place to go for an unforgettable mothers day celebration, then the famous steamboat place, 'yuen' came across my mind~~so i smsed my bro n sis to c if they are ok with the place~~then the answer i got was: ok..

straight away i called n tried to make booking, but things always dun go the way we want to~~the booking list was full~~~so my sis suggested another place: tasty pot~~another steamboat place near 'yuen'~~so i made reservation, 8 pax (though it was changed to 6pax later)~~

jz when i tot everything was going smoothyly, my mom came back from vietnam, n i was so excited to tell her that i had made the reservation, but her reaction din turn out as wat i expected~~as usual, she grumbled, but as the reservation was made by me, her favourite daughter, she only grumbled few minutes~~but that was already enough to kill~~~

my plan went smooth, picked my eldest sis up at 7.20pm at kl sentral, then off we went to our destination, but i forgot that today is wesak day~~which made the traffic jam n some roads were blocked~~

then my mom started grumbling again~~then i was like~~grrr~~~hey, it's not that i din mention the booking can be canceled, i told her but it was she who said it's ok, nvm~~now the roads are blocked, that's was unexpected~~it's not that i wanted the roads to be blocked~~

ok, we reached the destination 5 minutes late~~but my mood was already~~~haiz~~not to mention~~i could hardly smile despite the delicious scallop n other food i ate~~i kept stuffing food into my mouth, tryng to forget all the grumbles and negative feelings i had earlier~~

so, the conclusion is, never ever plan or organize anything for a wet blanket or a joykiller~~~it kills ur mood as well as ur smile~~~